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March 21, 2015

TiVo Spring Cleaning

The original title for this blog was “Breaking Up with Television Shows” but it took me so long to get to it, it’s now officially spring!  So now it’s time for some spring cleaning on my TiVo.  I have WAY to many shows accumulating. I literally can’t watch all of this stuff and I have other things I should be doing with my time (remember why I started this blog many years ago?)  I am having a hard time letting go.  Will I be missing something?  What if everyone else is talking about a show and I am out of the loop? This show has huge buzz, shouldn’t I be watching it? What if I change my mind and its gone forever?

I am so relieved when a show that I am so-so about is cancelled. Its like being in a relationship that should end, but you don’t want to hurt the other person, so you keep going until THEY break up with you. Unfortunately, none of these shows is going to break up with me any time soon so I will have to take matters in to my own hands or I will drown in television. If I would actually rather watch The Bachelor than some other show in my TiVo (a) I do realize there might be something wrong with me (b) the show is probably expendable. If I REALLY regret it, I can catch back up on it when I am 80 and have nothing better to do. In the age of streaming, nothing is gone forever. (There, now I feel better.)

Here is what will be removed from my TiVo by the time you read this blog:

Madam Secretary – I think Tea Leoni is awesome. I want to hang out with Tea but it feels like a chore to watch this show.

Empire is kicking ass and is now one of the top 10 network TV shows in America. I did watch the first few episodes and the music is awesome, but the show is average, at best.

Once Upon a Time is past its prime with me. In the beginning I thought the mythology of bringing all of these fairy tales together with this mystery was pretty cool. I’m over it. Hook is hot and I will miss him, but this one also has to go..

Girlfriends Guide to Divorce – I did painfully get through this first season but I can’t bring it back next season. I actually liked it in the beginning but it seemed to take a dive about when Janeane Garofalo left. 

The Following – I started to watch the first episode of this season…but I’m done.  Sorry Kevin Bacon. You are a dude.

The Blacklist – James Spader is fun in this show, but I find myself completely disinterested in these criminals. I am not digging it.

There is still too much on the list, including a few new shows that I have not even checked out yet and should not really bring in to the fold (The Slap, Secrets and Lies, American Crime)…and I have to watch this true crime drama The Jinx: The Life and Death of Robert Durst that just ended and is waiting for me, and I added two new shows that are staying (Better Call Saul and Broad City..hilarious.) See how I have a hard time letting go?  Sigh…well, this is a start!

UPDATE: I started watching The Slap and it’s good….luckily this one is a “television event” like a long mini-series so it is not a huge commitment. (Phew!)

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February 28, 2015

Today is My Birthday

Today is my birthday. Hitting 46 feels like I am officially starting the second half of my life. I’ll have to report back at 91 (or 92?) to let you know if I outperformed that assumption. Although, when I am in my 90s, people might not be writing blogs. The internet might just read all of our minds in to a collective consciousness or something (like the Cylons on Battlestar Galactica!) Then you won’t need an update.

What’s probably more important at the moment, is that I am actually in a good place as I kick of this approximate second phase of life. There have been a lot of days lately where I have realized that I am in a good mood and I am not sure why. That’s a pretty awesome feeling. (Reading back through my blog posts from this past year, I know I am in a better place. 2014 was not so amazing, huh?)

Has my job gotten less crazy? Nope.

Have I found that magical love that I thought would change everything? Nope.

Am I meditating, doing tons of yoga, or getting in more cardio? Not really. (as a matter of fact, I have scientific proof from my fitbit that I am not even taking very many steps!)

What’s changed?…..me!  Over time, things have just shifted. (OK, that did not just happen. I have worked VERY hard at it. I am pretty sure this shift is a return on investment for my almost twenty years of therapy. That is an encouraging thought as I write those checks every month.)

I think I have transitioned through that time in my life where I was expecting things to happen, comparing myself to other people, constantly trying to figure out why those things were not happening, or beating myself up for not trying hard enough. Some stuff happened. Some stuff didn’t. Some stuff may happen in the future and some stuff won’t. That’s how it goes…

Every time I talk to a friend or co-worker about some annoying thing in my life, they one-up me with something worse in their life. Being single is hard. Being married is hard. Working in a high stress job is hard. Being laid off is hard. Raising kids is hard. People get sick. People die. People are mean. Disappointment happens. There is no perfect life and we have no control over most of it. But sometimes the sky looks beautiful. Sometimes people surprise you (in a good way!). Sometimes a movie touches your heart. Sometimes you can actually balance in the dancers pose. Sometimes your little niece wants to call you on the phone because she misses you. Sometimes you kick ass in a meeting. And sometimes, just seeing a lizard will make you smile (that might only happen to me.)  If you are lucky enough to really appreciate these good moments and breathe through the shitty ones. Life is good.

This is all very Zen. I should really read up on all of this Buddhist stuff I might be accidentally living.

For the past six months, the main focus of my upcoming birthday was this grand plan that I had to roll my birth date back at midnight so I would stay 45 on OK Cupid. I had convinced myself that being 46 was the kiss of death for online dating and I was never going to get older than 45 online. But when the day came, I couldn’t do it.  First of all, it is not like dating at 45 has been all that fruitful. (Yes, the ridiculousness of the men I encounter in the dating world has continued in to 2015.) If I am going to lie about my age, I should go all out and be 35. But the real issue was that I don’t want to be something I am not. Period. I like myself and I want to be myself. I’m 46 and I’m awesome. I work really hard to be this person that I like, and this person does not lie. Your loss if you can’t handle my 46 year old awesomeness 🙂

So I am going to move in to my 47th year and do whatever the hell I want and be myself. I have managed to create a life where that is possible, every day. Not bad.

December 31, 2014

What a Weird Fall…

It’s been forever, again, I know. Because I had a really weird fall/early winter. Before we start 2015, here is a quick summary of all of the weird stuff that happened that I never told you about! Then we can start anew…

When I last updated you, I was also having a really weird month. From there, I got my balance back (briefly). All of the weird bugs and bug bites went away. I started a daily yoga routine before work (was super proud of that) and dived back in to the online dating pool.

New  Yorker CoverI went on a couple of dates with the Tiny Jazz Musician. He was actually a very cool guy and we had a good first date and he did all of the post date follow up perfectly. But on the second date, some key personality differences were revealed, and I realized that I was not attracted to him at all. At some point during our second date, he showed me a New Yorker he had with him and pointed out that his friend said he looked like the guy on the cover (in the middle with the glasses). Bad move.  From that moment forward, all I could picture when I looked at him was this guy (who also looks like the guy on this cover, and like the Tiny Jazz Musican..but bigger.) I couldn’t recover! No third date.

Right about that time, I got called to jury duty. I ended up getting selected for a fascinating trial that lasted eight days. You can read a bit about this art forgery trial here. As a follow up, we decided the art was fake and that crazy artist Nussberg had to pay equally crazy gallery owner Tatintsian 5 dollars. (Apparently nominal damages is like 5 dollars.) What I learned from this trial experience was (1) real life court is nothing like TV. The technology in court does not work right, lawyers trip over their words, and there are tons of rules that slow everything down. (2) we are trusting very important decisions to regular people based on only what lawyers decide to share with you (or are competent enough to uncover or explain correctly). This is a bad system. (By “regular people” I mean that most are not super smart. My jury was unusually intelligent, I assume by choice, because the trial was SO complex.)  (3) this entire process would be so much more efficient (for jurors) if they recorded the whole thing before we got there and edited it down to exactly the pieces we were supposed to see and hear and play them back for us. First, it would save us tons of time and allow us to know how much time it will take. Even more importantly, we are constantly hearing things we are supposed to ignore, which we don’t, because we are human. I realize lawyers use this as a strategy but it is bullshit and just compounds the reasons why this is such a bad system. After binge listening to Serial this past week.  My theories about our jury/trial system were reconfirmed. Listen to it. It’s pretty cool….

I also learned a lot about abstract art and specifically about Kazimir Malevich (one of his pieces shown above) and the avant-garde, suprematist art movement in Russia. It was like an eight day art class. Pretty cool!

There was a bit more dating. All dating is weird. There was the Music Writer who I had an OK date with but he pushed too hard at the end of the date which ended up being really weird and was a huge turn off. No second date. Then there were a few guys I chatted with on Hinge or Tinder who I never ended up meeting. The Private Chef, Burning Man Guy, and this guy (who was the most promising of the three, but also disappeared mid conversation. Very common.)  There is one guy who is still lingering, The Jazz Musician with the Beautiful Face. We can call him JMBF for short. I will have to cut him off pretty soon (or he will just disappear), but he has been entertaining for the holidays. JMBF is hot and smart and kind of interesting when I can get him to actually speak, but he just does not do relationships. Also, very common in my dating world.

bhut pepperAnd then, just today, I spent 24 hours chatting with Hot Sauce guy on Tinder (he owns a hot sauce/hot pepper company in Brooklyn. I have illegally included his logo to the right.) Some of his comments/questions were a little weird but I was trying to keep an open mind. He wanted to Facebook me to “see more pictures” which I reluctantly agreed to figuring I could just de-friend him if he ended up confirming my weird suspicions. Then, when he offered to send me more pictures and I said, “Lets just meet in person and see if we click. Want to have a drink when you are back in town?” He responded by de-matching me on Tinder (or taking down his Tinder profile completely. I can’t tell which.) SO WEIRD. What is even weirder is that we are still Facebook friends but he has sent no follow up messages to explain the disappearance from Tinder after 24 hours of chatting.  SO WEIRD. I will be clearly be de-friending him.  SO WEIRD.

So dating is going really well (sarcasm). But I rock on…

Before Thanksgiving, I got a cold, that turned in to a sinus infection, that turned in to a double ear infection! So, I spent a lot of late fall/early winter sick. That was a huge drag. I am FINALLY better, finished traveling and celebrating the holidays, and am now regrouping before 2015 comes (in 6 hours). I am chilling out, watching TV (finally binge watching the Wire just released in HD on HBO), and catching up on tons of stuff on my to do list (who doesn’t have a vacation to do list!)

Now that we are all caught up, I hope to have some more deep thoughts and/or funny stories for you in 2015. Happy New Year!!!

August 15, 2010

The 10 Hours of TV/Week Plan

I must admit, I am starting my “10 hours of TV a week plan” on an easy week.  SYTYCD and the Bachelorette just ended.  (Guilty pleasures that suck up a lot of TV time.)  The fall TV season has not started yet so things are pretty quiet on the TV front for my kick-off.  Here are the rules:

  1. I am allotted 10 hours of dedicated TV watching time per week. This is 10 hours in actual time which means about 13 hours of scheduled programming.  (fast forwarding through commercials of course)  Dedicated TV time is time when I am mostly focused on the TV and it is not just on in the background while I am doing something else.
  2. DVD TV shows  DO count towards the 10 hour budget. Shoes on Hulu (which I rarely use) would also count towards the budget.
  3. Weeks start on Sunday. Unlike my childhood (Love Boat, Fantasy Island, BJ and the Bear, etc) there is nothing worth watch on Saturday.  So in my world, the TV week starts on Sunday.
  4. I get bonus points for ONLY turning the TV on for my dedicated TV watching time. I did it this weekend and it really helps quiet the mind (I suck at meditating so this was as close as I have gotten..silence).  Right now the bonus is just a HUGE sense of accomplishment and a quieter mind.  Perhaps I should come up with a real reward for myself…..
  5. TV watching at the gym or in a bar does not count. These are clearly social and health related activities where TV is totally allowed.

Until I get bored of it, I will post my selected “13 hours of scheduled programming”  in the cool text widget on the sidebar.  Notice that this week I am catching up on some stuff I am behind on AND I am going to try to squeeze in Dexter Season 4 (just released on DVD) before the Fall TV season starts.  I should qualify that I don’t have Showtime (in an attempt to minimize my TV watching..hah!)  so I am behind on Dexter, Weeds, and Californication.  All great shows that I hope to catch up on eventually.